Me wearing Baruken's Mare Ring

Many things happened recently, I am still in the midst of getting over it.

I really hope and pray that everything will be back to normal soon.. I don't wish for my dearest girl to always be angry with me, though be angry and scold me I also don't really mind de lor, as long as you're able to throw your anger out and feel better this way.

Went to Bugis this morning, to the CD shop @ Iluma, the one me and my dear went to two days ago, where she saw this music box thing that she wanted so badly, and bought it, well at that point of time, I didn't have had much money with me ;( So couldn't buy it for her D: .. She was disappointed luh, but she dare not show much, however, as her stead, I felt it some how..

Never went to Raffles Hospital as planned today, I'm supposed to go for a check-up for my gastric problems[ yes its back again, don't ask so much D: ] Had trouble swallowing food last few days, let alone to eat, so most of the time I will just drink packet-ed "Milo" from home instead of eating solid food, if I do eat, I'll feel like throwing up ;( .. [ rmb the other time when I was out @ Iluma, Bugis with my dear and her best friends? well , my gastric acted up and I couldn't even lift a finger, was touched that Dear ran all the way around Iluma to buy bottled water for me ^^, dear thanks so much wor :) , really appreciate you ^^ love u 2 ^-^ ]


Ash'

Everything's my fault. Even if its not entirely mine, I let her blame me. She asked me for answers, I couldn't give. I only told her this, " I can never make it up to you. " as in the first place, I didn't want all these to happen, be it whether its truly my fault or not, doesn't matter anymore.

It all goes down to me ultimately, because I'm after all responsible for my own actions as I am older then you are, furthermore, I can never bring myself to hate you or even blame you for whatever past is past.

Hello People of Earth!

Had great fun yesterday with Corin, her stead; Sekai, and my dear girl, Claudia. We went to Bugis to actually spend a day of shopping and playing DDR together lor xDDDD..

Well, most of the time is my dear going around shopping for small items, like say, trinklets that aren't that valuable? for her family members D: while I emo around, as Corin was very into her stead and i didn't wanna be the light bulb you know? Imagine that >,< .. [ Madam, Sir , would your like me to hold the lamp for your? How bright do you want it to be? lmao ]

As an otaku fan, ultimately I'll always go to the Otaku shop @ Iluma :BB without fail luh, but was very delighted to see many Hitman Reborn thigns at there, had my friend reserved a set of Mare rings that cost about $33.90 SGD if I'm not wrong. I want them so badly that I even dreamed about them in my sleep last night.. LOL!? Well, they have the complete set of Arcobaleno's pacifiers too xDD GREAT! I'mma gonna buy the "7/3" policy sets [ as in the Vongoloa Rings, Mare Rings and the Pacifiers ] .. dear if you reading this, BE JEALOUS xDD mwahahahahhaha I shall rule the world before you do >:B

Tio girlfriend abuse by my Claudia again, however, I truly enjoyed being tormented and bullied by her :x .. FYI, my ddr skills improved a lot already k?

Look forward to another such otuing soon, or shall I call it double dating? >:BBB


Ash'

:/ Cute picture right? It sure says a lot of things just by looking at it. Doesn't it make you go, " Aww poor cute teddy. "? Well...I sure miss my dear a lot though, but I just dare not tell her nor even send a simple message saying, " I miss you" , " You miss me too? "

I just hope that from the hugs I've given to her she would understand from my body language le. Words are just words and I believe that actions speaks louder than words. Due to the fact that we can hardly meet each other lately, every single second spent with each other, I'm treasuring it. Even though it may just be a few hours, seeing her and being with the person I loved most means a whole deal to me. In fact, it actually makes my day.

I may be an Idiot, but I'm ur Idiot right? Being Silly just for you.. its not that I want to, but because when I'm around you, the stupidest silly things just happens, and all my flaws comes out.

Dear Readers,

I'd arranged a meet out today with my dear and her best friend, Corin after their school @ Westmall, at first to play DDR, which is Dance Dance Revolution; however, my dear had only brought one set of clothes to change and wanted Corin to take her place to play with me a few rounds, we ended up not playing for my dear walked away from the arcade, as she was unable to enter by just wearing half-uniform; I kinda lent her my jacket you see, but the stupid ass worker from Time Zone chased her out.

By the time Corin made a change back of clothes, my dear have already headed to " Koufu" for lunch; I actually followed my instinct where she would be :x haha.. Corin asked me to run faster to my dear, for she was afraid that my dear was angry at that point of time already and wanted me to go cheer her up. My dear gave me the black face when we ran into her, and I was like " omg, what have I done to deserve such a look? " Well, she just told me to go find a place for her to sit down quietly and have her lunch, as my head was spinning at that time, I ended up going around aimlessly ~,~ till the aunty supposedly pushing the dirty cart pushed me away too -,- I never heard her saying "excuse me" or was it I who was day dreaming away? lol..

After lunch, we headed walking around the mall window shopping.. Dear saw this emperor penguin stuffed toy she wanted, but it was too expensive, though I offered to buy it for her, she doesn't want..However, she did saw a small bear that I liked, I guess she wanted to buy it for me but her friend didn't want to lend the money to her.. so she went to another shop, leaving me behind .. [ well, I know she wanted the bear too...so I bought it for her as a surprise in place of the penguin, which I now cannot afford; hope she wasn't disappointed D: hey! I bought her cookies too XPP ]

~ Ash

Got myself into hot soup today ; didn't expected that I would be spotted so easily entering the arcade. Not that I'm against them or anything, I just let the mother scold and threaten me. I just gave my blank face, whatever she says, are just words, I had no fear in me.

However, I do not wish my dear to get into trouble because of me, at the same time, I yearn to talk to her, but because of these, one must take extra precaution in doing things, be it sms-ing, calling or even in simple words, communicating with one another. What I'm afraid is that whatever sms-es I sent to her phone you see, might act as a decoy on one of her parents phone? as in what i send, either of them might receive it, or they actually de-coded my girl's phone's password and read every single messages? D: gosh~ [ must be her brother's doing, it could be him who told his parents that I called? ._. anything is possible. ]

From the moment I walked away from them and stepped out from Westmall, I felt relieved yet sad at the same time, cause couldn't ddr with Lou & my girl.. waited a long time for this u know? no matter what i've gotta stay strong for the both of us, don't know what challenges lies ahead of us, after all, we've waited more then a lifetime to be together again..

* Heart Wrenching effect * ~ * Clenches my heart * ...
Am I an Asshole or what? I've made my dearest Girl disappointed with me and even lost her trust in me because of a careless act that resulted from one misunderstanding to another.
Many things happened from yesterday till now and only at this time, all has been cleared.

I know luh, in every aspects of a relationship, misunderstandings does happens, let alone quarrels or even cold wars, but it can be very tormenting especially if you suddenly don't feel like doing anything but just sit down, cry and done being emotional. I am totally one idiot who says thing without going through my big brain, that's what resulted me to have made her angry with me.
Well, I did cried, and I blamed myself ; reflected what I have done, and felt super duper guilt ridden.

My girl may say she's okay with things and all, but I know one can never forgive so easily especially when there's a bridge of trust or even for my case, I told her I was mood-less. * KaBoomz* ~ Ashleigh u MORON !! ~ my tongue slipped :S it made her even more less forgiving DDDD: and I thought it was going to be the end of the world, I couldn't sleep whole night lor.

How to be a better man for my Dear? D: if I continue being a moronic heartless asshole?! Well for a start, I should stop communicating with her mother, and if her mother ask me questions about my Dear, I will lie D: and help my dear ; no choice ma, I do not want to ever breach her trust in me ever again, lesson learned well, through the hard way of course. D:

Well, wo heng ai ta.. I do not ever want to let her down anymore.

=B This room is made 2 days before Valentine's Day for my Dearest Girl, Dev.
Really hope she'll like it :) She told me that she wanted a piano set so I went around habbo the next day using her account and chanced upon an old friend whom sold his Lime piano set to me at a discounted rate of course xPPP

[ The day before I made this room, I showed not much interest when she told me that she wanted a piano set and she loves it very much; but in my heart I knew what to do :X .. so, Dear if you're reading this, my silly beloved girl, Happy Valentine's Day to you :) ; its meant to be a surprise you know? =DD ]

Ah.. Love her so much.
I made it specially for her, though its not much but its definitely from my heart :)

It has come to my attention that the marketplace things can never be trusted anymore. Those freaking noobs are asking for too much!! >:l gosh! Junks for 10 k ?? not even any super rare reach to that price yet. Ridiculous!

Well, I almost spilled out my coffee and banged my head against the wall while trying to contain my ever lasting laughter ._.

See for yourself :
ps. its damn fucktarded

Ciaossu~! Me have not been blogging lately cos have been watching Tutor Hitman Reborn! anime online for quite some time xDDD! love it, have to thank my Silly Girl for introducing me this anime :))) * ps. she say if I keep talking about her favorite anime in front of her, she might not like it anymore , so I kinda promised to shut my mouth up D: * .. but then again, I LOVE IT !! * eyes sparkle * especially the arcabaleno Reborn & Marmon ^-^ they're the cutest amongst the 7 chosen one.

Btw, my blog isn't dead yet, fyi, its on hibernation mood :/ * emo*